Gratitude, Part 2

by Feb 8, 20074 comments

This past month gratitude entered with an even greater poignancy and depth for me. News arrived with a clarity and force that shook my reality: my partner and soulmate of 14 years has been diagnosed with advanced terminal cancer. Suddenly, our world has changed. Whatever our personal plans were, they have evaporated and life is now grounded in the day-to-day.

Gratitude.

I am even more mindful that each day, each hour, that passes is a gift. I am filled with gratitude for the time we have been given, for a special love, and for a life-giving friendship. I hold a deep admiration for Renee’s grace and courage, and for her astounding acceptance and trust, even as she faces the great abyss of her own death. That she has been part of my life can only be described as a grand miracle, one to which I still pause in amazement.

Many of us watch those we love face their own brave journey with this horrible disease and we all watch it play out, powerless in the face of its progress, taking our mothers and fathers, our brothers and sisters, our children and friends.

So let me tell my truth about all of this: I do not want to see my loved one die of cancer before her time. I just don’t. But this is the reality of it. And as we work so hard to stop death, or slow its march, all we accomplish is perhaps eking out a bit more life along the way to the inevitable. So I hope to celebrate what we’ve been given in the present moment and accept life on the terms it has been given, grateful for every bit. It’s all good.

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4 Comments

  1. Anonymous

    You are very special, Denise, as I am certain Renee is. Blessings on you both–

    Sue S

  2. Anonymous

    Dear Denise,

    I am sending you and your partner Renee my prayers for healing, strength, and courage. I wish you all the best. May your prayers be answered for the good of all involved.

    Peace and love,
    Monika Antonelli

  3. Anonymous

    Have you checked out alternative cancer treatments? You might want to look at cancertutor.com

  4. Anonymous

    Know that you and Renee are in our thoughts and prayers.

    Love,
    Kathryn & Tricia

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